I am at the edge of it all.
It's such a strange feeling to be an observer in all of these things. As a journeyer, I am not directly involved in anything going on around me. I get to watch, I have no desire to engage in the drama of day to day life around me- part of that is because it simply doesn't belong to me, but also because I am getting more and more comfortable in simply not attaching to those things that used to draw me in - I'd have to offer my opinion, I'd have to get my nose in other peoples' business. But now, as a result of the yoga, of my years, of my experience, of my desire to live a little lighter, it just doesn't concern me.
I am watching this Bikram franchise / co-op evolve with lots of excitement. I don't have a great deal on the line financially YET - so it's the existing studio owners who are doing the initial heavy lifting on how this will play out. I am fascinated at how quickly the people in the community have gone from fear based reactions to excitement, positive perspectives and hope for an awesome organization. Of course, there are a few flies in the ointment, but overall, it's pretty fun to watch. I am invested in the outcome, of course, as I will open a studio soon, but still, at this stage, I'm in the periphery.
I'm planning to start heading west in a week or so. It will be interesting to go in a different direction. May have the chance to work with Diane, may not. It's another strange thing - working with her and getting feedback was one of the major reasons I took this trip, but a lot of the major reasons for this journey have fallen to the way side. That's not to say I don't want Diane's feedback - I have already learned so much from here via the workshop she held in Auburn, via the feedback she gave to Jodi and just by hanging around her. If I can teach for her, it will be icing on the top of the cake - if not, that's just something I get to come back for (or have her come to my new studio for!).
West....how far west will I go??
This trip is taking on a life of its own. I am just an observer and a learner. I do wonder - when I finally stop the vehicle and plant some tomatoes, to what extent will I continue to just observe? How will that feel?
I'll find out soon enough. For now, I just live the day.
Sending love to all.